The world is really big, and it operates by harsh common sense. After working, going to korea, I've learnt that.

That's why nowadays I don't feel jumbled up by anything anymore, because it's as if my horizons have opened up. But while knowledge is there, wisdom isn't necessarily there. So without it, I find myself slightly irritated by excessive dramatizing of this process of going to jc. It's gonna be a big change, but 何必 get ourselves too emotional about it? Naturally doing it is ok, but often I feel it's like people subconsciously feel that they need to do so. And it's just gonna influence our decisions, and might even make us lose sight of our goals. I worry much about getting into the jc I want, but I won't like myself feeling that it's a drastic turn in my life. Either I've grown to see such stressful things as easier to cope, or i'm simply distancing myself from disappointment. But these are my surface feelings which I keep feeling and I have blogged them.

One of these rare times when I throw away consideration if I'm offending anyone. Slowly, that consideration seems to be replaced by a spiteful voice saying 'people who get offended grow up, it's like that in the outside world'.

Compassion, and wisdom. I'm glad God leaves me this awareness that we need them, or we'd all turn into hard-hearted people, thinking everything in that paragraph above, because of the harshness of independent life

Whoa, looks like I'm quite mixed up too.